The Release

 
 

the light plays tricks through

the bars and glass and toxic air

28 stories above the ground

or is it my mind’s trickery?

up in the sky and up in my head 

stuck with the stories within

the fears and doubts, that stubborn resistance   

swirl and swallow me whole

but he can see through it all 

he cracks the glass and snaps all the traps

I’ve set around myself as he peers straight into me 

and in that moment it all makes sense in the unraveling

that the fits of rage

and powerlessness

and the pricks of pain from the release he triggers 

are the tectonic shifts inside

the growth 

and freedom

I’ve been looking for out there

is in here

 

asking me to let go 

to find solid ground again